She's had it ruff, ex lady of the evening, abusive father, countless cheating boyfriends that she thought were the one, drunk but praying mother, and then she meets him. He's proper, posh and too good to be true. The relationship seems to be moving rather quickly, and while ashamed of her past she hides her truths. Her self- esteem is shattered. So prideful she acts, because she doesn't want him to know. Yet the truth must be revealed if she wants to go.

Words that a woman wants to feel!

"And finally I twist my heart round again, so that the bad is on the outside and the good is on the inside, and keep on trying to find a way of becoming what I would so like to be, and could be, if there weren't any other people living in the world." Anne Frank

I enjoy the story writing aspects of each and every one of my tracks. This one seems to have had a lot more heart in it than usual. In my journey of looking for the different ways a woman can become scorned, I ran across a somewhat controversial way "The Suga Momma". Some would say she's not scorned she made a choice. Yet I ask, what led her to that choice? What would lead her to pay for his time? Could it have been loneliness? Was she caught in despair? Maybe she had been hurt before and didn't want to get too close to anyone, but only close enough to get her needs met. Still having someone meet your needs may cause you to need them more than you believed you would. Can she hold on to her heart and mind or will it become more to paying him for his time. Arerol Soul

They can only love you for a moment and then they leave you alone most of the time. As you stare out of the window fawning over them and awaiting their return. It feels like a cage with the bars made up of the desire for love and in that cage you find the most wonderful love you could ever have. Fawn Wings